Birth - reflection of the process & photo story

In the following article I'm sharing my experience of the birth process, and Aia's arrival to our Forest place.

One of the common questions we've been asked in the last months of pregnancy was:

"Do you have some plan on giving birth, where and how is it going to happen?"

"We'll see what feels right in the moment, as it happens, and follow the guidance from there..."

I noticed that when people have been feeling some uncertainty from our side, they tend to come with their (heartfelt) advices. As much as I could appreciate every reflection, it was clear for me that first consideration in our process needs to be Hannah's well being. At the same time, it was followed by the journey of the incoming Soul and the communication, which I might have been able to establish with her being. In the weeks before birth, I often times offered a question to her presence: "Show me, what might be the best way for you...?"

In the previous article, I've shared more about the (energetic) preparation for birth, our trip to Wadi Rum in Jordan and the last couple of months in the Forest, including our visit to the hospital.

Read part I. here> https://www.cosmicembrace.space/post/warm-welcome-to-someone-special

Home birth and/or medical assistance?

How does one, eventually, bring a child into this world? It soon became clear to me, that the process would be co-created by the three of us. Both Hannah & me had the wish to follow the natural flow. Without going into a clear strategy about the birth process, it was actually really important to follow step by step guidance, which called for deep trust and attunement.

From my communication during the pregnancy, I had the sense that the new Soul is very eager to come (soon) into this world. First, we made an agreement to wait, at least until week 36. However with my injury, which delayed the preparation in our living space, I urged her to stay in the comfortable and warm womb place for some more weeks.

In the last month of pregnancy Hannah also did some check-ups with a gynaecologist, which we largely skipped beforehand. In the meantime, I was getting acquainted with the portals around the hospital, and securing some places where I could establish an aligned connection. In the places of medical care and emergency there is usually stronger activity in the surrounding energy field. After all, that's where many Souls either come into, or depart from this world.

For me, the idea of the hospital has been a just in case scenario. Hannah clearly expressed the idea of Home birth also to the doctor with her last check-up. Giving birth at home is a grey area in our country - it's technically not allowed, but also not strictly prohibited. We got to know people who call for the assistance of doulas or registered nurses who are allowed to accompany labour in such cases. We didn't came across anyone, being able to grasp the multidimensionality of the process. And it definitely didn't feel right to me to bring any third person in the sacred place we created at our Forest Home.

Step by step process -

Here, I would like to take you, dear reader, with us through the process. I'm sharing here merely as a reflection of our own journey, and it doesn't contain any medical advice.

& Photo story

Completing the details in the Forest house, and bringing to an end my circles of Cosmic Embrace events, we signalled that we're ready for the arrival. Intuitively, Hannah had the feeling what might be the actual (not calculated) date of birth. We started the process two days before with some bonfire and calling in the Soul.

I tend to pay attention to some sings or reflections from the landscape that would signify to me, about the beginning of the labour. Yet, in those moments, the biggest feedback that counted for me was hidden in the question - Is there something moving, do you feel some contractions or anything?

And, indeed it was. In my perception, Hannah was tantalizingly connected with the movement inside her. Her response would be something like: Yes there is some smaller cramp movement, but it's outside the uterus. This doesn't mean much, it can still mean more than a week...

Until the following night, I noticed her going outside of bed more than usual. And, as I fully woke up, she reported that gentle walking outside helps her release the pressure. (but it still might not mean much...😉)

Well, for me it was time, to light up some candles and set the atmosphere.

In the first few minutes, I still had some time to prepare bottles of warm water and cook tea. For some reason, Hannah had the strong calling to smudge the place with frankincense. Whilst she was already starting to measure time between contractions and wondering if it's actually happening, I had to declare: You're starting the process.

It was physically very intense, and contractions themselves soon became longer than the breaks in between. The best way to somewhat release the pressure was to apply counter pressure (which we practiced already before labour). I don't have the image of the grip, as I was busy with the movement itself, but for those interested you can easily find the techniques online.

During the break, here she is resting, or rather getting ready for the next wave.

On my personal note of contractions... I'm merely an observer in the male body, having experienced no physical sensations. Anyhow, I'm used to accompany people through the moments of peak intensity: for example when they are regressing in the past life karma and releasing traumatic imprints.

And still, being energetically intertwined with someone giving birth - that's yet another level of the intensity. I knew it was important for Hannah as well to stay in the body, be fully present with the experience and not simply zone out. So, when applying contra-pressure wasn't enough, I remember suggesting to scream as loud as possible...

I could also feel we are not alone in the process. In preparation of the space we wanted to minimise the amount of things in the living space. Keep what was really important. For example, there were different crystals bridging to energies that might be accompanying birth, feathers of our duck friends, some items from our travels.

And most importantly, the corner for the newborn watched over by Space Whale:

We could already witness dawn through the window, as the intensity seemed to culminate. At this point, Hannah felt to suggest to include the hospital option. Feeling that she is loosing all physical strength during the contractions, I observed that she might be on the verge of staying conscious. And we might need another pair of hands, after all.

Luckily, I had the link to the incoming Soul at the moment, who pointed to really anchor with the next few waves, and eventually to leave the Forest afterwards. Hannah came back to strength, asked for protection and set the direction for the last step of the journey. We took the neccessities and on the road we are. 🚙

It took us cca. 15 min to come to the hospital, whilst she even found some release being in a strange position at the back of the car, whilst we were driving there. At this stage it all happened quickly and spontaneously and we were later left with the question:

Was this the right calling, to go for the hospital?

Here is the nice sign, a rose flower, awaiting at the entrance.

The big question, asked by the medical staff. Did the breaking of the water already happen?

No, that was also one of the reasons for us coming there in the first place. Despite high intensity of the contractions, amniotic fluid still seemed to be untouched. No one knew how long might the labour still take.

Well, say no more. In the next minutes, I had to re-park my car from the emergency entrance, and her waters immediately broke after being admitted. Soon, I walked to the labour room with a kind nurse standing next to Hannah.

It felt to me, they recognised our dynamic (plus her papers already stated idea of Home birth). We could keep our own energetic space, with Hannah's body leading the process and professional assistance honouring her wishes. As the process was very straightforward, the doctor was merely observing from a distance. It gave me plenty of space to stay supportive to Hannah during her last pushes, whilst taking part in welcoming the baby coming out of her. 👼

And so, we welcomed Aia:

There is a rush of hormones, following immediately after birth, with precious time to connect with each other. That's also where we had to slightly challenge medical procedures, as protocols are designed to rush with everything. Even though, I knew it's important to reflect some respect to medical personnel, since we anyhow ended up with them.

The doctor was playing on the "father's moment of proud" card, as he was urging me to cut the umbilical cord (and they even offered to take a photo of it, which I happily declined). Hannah felt to delayed this procedure, and kept her connected to the umbilical cord for a short while.

I knew, this is the moment when the energy of Intervention easily comes in. In the regression of my own birth (happening in the same hospital!), I recognised the energy of synthetic Greys, which enveloped my field soon after birth.

Here I was, some decades later, and the same energy was being expressed through the doctor in the room. Yes, the time run out on the doctor's clock and again we were reminded that it's the last time to cut the cord (otherwise they would do it). Eventually, we did it together with Hannah, there was no point in starting any argument in the room, as the energy has been harmonious so far. Yet, I had to reflect to the intrusive energy: This is as far as you can go. We're cutting the cord, but not leaving any energetic residue, so you have to leave..."

Completion of this process was for me reflected two days after, when we left the place. We took the photo next to the writing on the wall saying: I was born in this hospital...We obviously have some of the similar heritage here, and it was important for me to honour the moment.

Aia's arrival has played a role in me being able to keep the sovereignty also in the process of my own birth. I reflected, once more, clear boundary and urged any remaining Souls intertwined there on the journey of realignment.

Let's stay with the birth process and realignment for a little longer.

Aia was born on Tuesday morning, and immediately after completing the birth procedure medical staff leaves the room, whilst we are asked to stay in there for three more hours. During the pregnancy, I hosted weekly events of Cosmic Embrace on Tuesday mornings (which Hannah attended almost until the end). Our sessions lasted for three hours as well.

For the first time, I'm sitting with Aia in my lap and starting to wonder about the symbology. The space is filled up with hormones, and it takes some time for emotionality to subdue. In the moments of calm connection, I had to eventually recognise - the Soul I've been connecting through in the ether is now landing in her body. Communication transpires again.

If you had any questions about doing birth with the natural flow, you can just continue facilitating the process here. Might you have any judgments about the hospital environment, work on releasing them. There will still be all the time in the world for me to (fully) arrive in the Forest, how can you work on re-aligning the energy in this given environment...?

This is my interpretation of the immediate encounter, but it felt like she was directly suggesting to continue with our Tuesday morning sessions, in a slightly different environment. That's when I recognised the role of two crystals that I brought with me. Instinctively, one ended up on the child's bed that was somehow already prepared next to us.

Later, when the nurse came and checked on us, I noticed her attention being drawn to the crystals (another one was on top of Hannah's bed). They were respectful, and eventually started to ask on why and what kind of stones did I put there... I've explained that Aia's crystal is coming from our recent journey to the Wadi Rum desert, and it came to us after some stronger process in there. Gradually, I got to know from the nurse, that she too has been to the Wadi Rum desert, in January. For me, that's been first synchronicity that stood out strongly.

Later, we addressed the idea of home-birth and why it's not being widely practiced and accepted here. But, with recognising that Hannah is coming from the Netherlands, also she could fully settle with our initial aim, as they have a strong culture of giving birth at home...

And in a few days, when we were leaving the building, the same nurse was just finishing her duty, and going home from job at the same time. We greeted each other again, extended good wishes. What I want to reflect from our process is that encounters like this are happening spontaneously, without clear intention or planning.

After the birth we took the advantage of hospital care, with the possibility of booking a private room for ourselves. I got to know that the hospital offers a possibility where also the father can stay in the room, if you take their "apartment option" - food and private bathroom included. Well, as much as I tend to be resourceful on my travels, this was actually a moment to go for all inclusive, with most privacy available.

And having a warm meal served was truly a luxury, after an intense labour.

Another poignant encounter happened the very next morning after the birth. In our last video before birth, Hannah shared more about our duck family and their (grand)mother Regina. She was our white duck that made her nest, just under the village road, but went missing (together with her eggs) few days before Aia's birth. We had a strong etheric connection, realising that her Soul might have left the body and she is actually going to be part of the assistance, when Aia is traversing portals to our place.

I know; you can easily say, I'm making this conversations up, and they just exist inside my head. Whilst we were staying in the hospital, Dominik took care of ducks and plants at our place, and he found this piece of cloth laying next to the road.

On the day of Aia's arrival someone must have dropped a fabric with white duck from their car/bicycle, just when they were driving through the road, which is crossing our place. What are the chances of it being a coincidence?

Yes, Regina signalled back to us. She's been a true Soul guide for us, brought us into parenting her, showed us how to parent her ducklings and kept her channel open also through the ether. What a blessing, thank you Regina. 🙏🏽

On the second day of our stay in the city, I wanted to get some fresh air, going for a walk to the river. I was greeted by fruits from the cherry trees, which we planted some years ago and where we conducted a ceremony during our last year's June retreat. For me, they are serving as the anchoring presence of ancient Orion energy, and could therefore support the re-aligning movement of Greys.

Having eaten some of those cherries whilst walking over the bridge on the river, I've also encountered some of my dear school friends, together with their children. Yes, the field was now clearly speaking back to me - There was a reason for you to welcome your own child in this environment. She's coming here and will assist to build bridges, so that the energy of the Forest Sanctuary might be able to reach those that might be able to benefit from it. That's how the journey of re-alignment progressively leads into reactivation, where the new crystalline grid will replace the old (synthetic) grids.

Enjoying the fruits from the tree, I took some with me and brought them to Hannah, It might be our last evening in town, before reaching the woods.

Indeed, it was! I asked Aia, to be very active in her feeding during the night, and also Hannah has been diligent with breastfeeding since first minutes after birth. Medical people have this scientific tendency to look at the "gained weight", before allowing a newborn to go home. There felt to be some divine inspiration in the following morning, so we could bend their protocol and get ready to depart after the lunch.

We made it; physically tired, but enriched for the experience of the three of us coming Home.

In the next article, I'll share more about our first weeks here, our arrival at the space and the ceremony of planting a tree by which we celebrated Aia's arrival in this realm.

Many people have already extended warm wishes and supported in this process. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. 💝🙏🏽

If you're inspired by our sharing, I'll be sharing more about the process in the next events of Cosmic Embrace. With the energy of recent birth, I'll guide us through re-birth process, which is meant to truly support the arrival of your Soul. Our next online event is already in the coming Sunday (28.06.), you can check out more here>

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